One day at a time...

 Today has been a little better in terms of eating. Eating in general. With the exception of the green beans I ate, today has been a remarkable exercise in the futility of weight loss. Two burgers, albeit small, some chips and a few pretzel bites worked their way into my system. Even with all of that, I just made my points allotment. Is that good or bad? I don't know. I've been told I need to eat them all, but that's what was available today, and I'm still hungry. Kinda. I'm getting hungry, though it's been about three hours since I've eaten. Maybe that's progress. I don't expect to tip the scale in the right way this week, but here's hoping.

I've been stressing myself, internally, over starting a new job on Monday. It doesn't seem like it will be a hard job. I mean, it's retail. It's definitely not rocket surgery. The last time I worked and went to school I wound up in the hospital from the stress. At that time, I was working two full-time jobs and going to school full-time. This is just a part-time job. For now. But, ever since that time, I can't push my body to those extremes any more. I literally mean I cannot do it; not that I won't do it. My body sees that level of stress coming, throws up its hands and balks at all the red warning lights and sirens and shuts down. Way down. So, I'm worried that will happen again. I don't want my poor husband to have to go through that with me. Too much stress = bad things all around. Add to that my school is being especially dumb and slow in processing my financial aid. A month into the semester, and I still have no aid and haven't paid any part of my tuition and borrowed money for my books (one of which they refused to order for me, and I still don't have) and and and...yeah, so on and so forth.

So, perhaps it is time for a new strategy. I need to think of something positive and happy in my life before I fall asleep tonight. *thinking* *thinking* Let's see...I have a roof over my head, three crazy furbabies who love me, a husband who must REALLY love me to put up with me thus far, as far as in-laws go I'm doing really well, I'm alive and functioning, I've got great friends who support me, a niece and nephew who love my company...yeah, I guess I'm doing all right.