Breakfast Schmeakfast

I've heard that eating breakfast is a good way to start doing a lot of things, like being healthy and being less brain tired. I've successfully eaten breakfast two days in a row, which is a BIG deal if you know me and my eating schedule. Which, to be honest, follows the strict, "Do I have time to eat today?" or "Did I actually eat something just now, because wow that's cool!" schedules. Here's hoping I can keep it up and notice some kind of generic statement results about being healthier and blah blah.

I'm not sure I hold out much hope, but I know just two days of food isn't enough to make a difference. I'm pretty wiped, mentally. That leads to just being tired all the time. I see why a lot of people who have a Ph.D are considered experts in their fields. That's all they ever think about and practice and do. I'm not even an expert and my brain is so full of second language acquisition aspects that it's about to burst. I've even taken a second job teaching adults who want to earn a high school diploma. Forget about teaching a second language, I am teaching them grammar and structure and style for their first language. More power to them. I admire them for wanting diplomas later in life. I'm just hoping I can help them.

Sheepy

So, I have a new laptop because my previous laptop is nearly five years old. It still works and is a good machine, but it just isn't keeping up like it needs to in my busy school life. This one is the same brand, but a sleeker and faster model with three times the storage capacity on the hard drive. I barely took up an eighth of the space on the last one. I'm not sure what I will do with all the space on this one. I'll find out, I guess.

I went shopping tonight to buy fruits and veggies and generally better-for-me food. I'm hoping this works and I start to make better choices. I've never been good at tricking myself to eat better food, because I know I'm tricking myself, and I'm too smart to outsmart myself. It's very existential, these conversations I have with myself, "Hey, this is a better choice! We can freeze grapes and they taste just like healthy candy!" "Yeah? Healthy candy is an oxymoron and doesn't exist. Let's just go eat real candy and be happy." "Okay." That's how it goes. Currently, there are no candy or cookies or cake or any other tempting foods in my apartment. Well, unless you count the two month old package of Oreos I never ate. I keep forgetting to throw them out. Stale Oreos probably taste just like they sound.

I've been figuring out the points values on all the foods I ate today. I'm proud of myself, because I tracked it all in my little stupidsmartphone app they give you for free at WW if you sign up to pay all this money a month because it's the best value ever and you lose more weight if you do all this stuff they say to do. Yeah. I ate all my points, and only went over by 3. That's not so bad considering all the meals I ate today were restaurant food. And we get those extra 49 points per week. I'm still trying to figure out the points value for this post-nasal drip my allergies have turned on. I think I'll ask at my next meeting.

Now, it's bed time. Right after a hot and relaxing shower.

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I have the muddled words of some Rush song playing in my head. Really, it's just the music. I had an e-mail saying I better log into the blog or else. That was pretty scary. Or else. I have joined WW again, and the first meeting is on Wednesday. I say again, because I keep having to drop out of the meetings because of cost. I wish they were free. They helped me so much when I was on it regularly. I am determined, this time. Nothing is stopping me. Except maybe school. And homework. And work. And that piece of chocolate cake in my fridge. We'll see how it goes this time. I'm hoping I can make myself stay with it and pay for it monthly. It's crazy expensive, considering we just cancelled our cable because of money issues. The husband says to go for it though. He's mildly encouraging. Mostly he just says okay to whatever I say. He's very placating. It's bed time now.