Bleh

After 6 months, maybe I should update this thing. No one really reads it, and a lot of stupid things have happened that have kept me from wanting to post anything.

A month ago, I had a large cyst rupture. It was painful. I cried. I was sitting on the floor at my sister-in-law's house playing Call of Cthulhu.The room went dark briefly, I got tunnel-vision, all color drained from my face, and I started sobbing uncontrollably. That's always fun in a room full of people who are playing games. Went to the ER. What do they tell me? There's nothing we can or will do about it. They took some blood and a sonogram and sent me home with Tramadol. That's it They even said I didn't have a cyst rupture. Excuse me. I think I know what happened. A week later I was in another town for my bro's graduation. Thankfully, my GYN is in that town. I was still hurting and hurting unbearably. I went to the ER there, and ten hours plus a pelvic exam done atop an inverted bedpan later I was diagnosed with two pelvic infections and a ruptured cyst with a lot of fluid buildup. I stayed a few extra days to get a follow-up visit with my GYN.

Depressingly, she confirmed the cyst rupture. The fact I hadn't had a period since January, only one round of clomid, and no money, she gave me the progesterone to induce a period and put me back on birth control. It's the best decision for now, the birth control. Doesn't mean it hurts any less to know I have to go back on something that will prevent pregnancy even more than my body already does. Yeah, I know. I get that it helps the other hormones. I get that I need the periods. I get that it helps. But, at the same time...it hurts. Hopefully when I finish the undergrad degree and get a job with benefits, a job with a paycheck so that we aren't picking for food out of the frozen wasteland of the freezer space. Things will hopefully look up.

Summer school has been kicking my butt. Twelve credit hours. A graduate English class. With a 20 page paper. Yeah. I'm a masochist. My father-in-law had a stroke and was in the hospital for a week. It's been so crazy around here. He's better now, but still it was hard. He's still not cleared to go back to work. It's just rough. Sigh.

Here's hoping that things start to look up as we move forward.